“Wait,” I look up at him. “We need to get some things straight between us. I’m sorry that I screwed us up. I never should have asked you to be with me just because Bobby rejected me. I was angry and hurt but that did not give me the right to use you. It was not my intention to change our relationship and if I could go back to that night I would do it because I lost my best friend that night and I want him back.”
“You didn’t lose me Lisa. You could never lose me. Do I want more than friendship with you? Yes but I wanted that before we slept together. If all I can have of you is friendship I’ll take it. Do I fantasize about you waking up one morning and seeing that Bobby is not worthy of your love? Hell yes because I don’t want to have to pick up pieces of your heart again. And I owe you an apology too. After that night you needed me to be your friend and all I wanted was to be with you again. I couldn’t see that by not letting you heal first I was pushing you away. I wonder all the time if I had just stopped and not pushed you to give me what I wanted if somehow we could have eventually come together. So now I will be your friend because not having you in my life at all is worse than having to be just a friend.”
The tears are running down my cheek and he pulls me into his arms. He doesn’t say anything else just rubs the back of my neck. Why can’t I love this guy? How can my heart want anyone else? I put my arms around his waist and hold tight which is a good thing because just then we run aground. The boat stops suddenly and we are pitched forward. Brad puts the engine in reverse but all that happens is brown silt is churned up by the outboard motor. Brad cuts the engine so we don’t burn it out.
“Looks like we’re stuck here for a while,” he says as he puts his arms back around me. “High tide is in about an hour so we shouldn’t have to wait too long to get free.”
I can’t help but laugh. It starts out as a chuckle but starts to build. I feel his responding laugh starting as I pull away and look up at him, “Well this is a familiar dilemma. But I am not jumping in the water to get us unstuck. If we need to lighten up you are going in.”
“It’s my boat and I have to drive it,” he is still laughing.
“Yes but you weigh almost two of me so we will rise twice as far. And you’re stronger than me, you can push us off. And I have driven this boat before.” I point out.
“Like seven or eight years ago,” he says. “It’s a moot point anyway, I don’t mind waiting on the tide.”
I walk to the bow and sit on one of the benches there, “Fine we will wait for the tide.”
He comes and sits opposite of me, “Well then finish telling me about Bobby and Stuart.”
And just like that I have my friend back. I tell him everything, all my feelings and fears. The fact that my body still reacts to Bobby when he touches me or even looks at me. That I’m scared he’ll break me apart but more scared that if I don’t give it a chance I will regret it for the rest of my life. I tell him about my night with Stuart and that I can’t see myself with him this time next month.
Then he asks me a question that floors me, “Out of all the men in your life, who can you see still being there with you in five years?”
My only answer, “You.”
What sparked your interest in becoming a romance writer?
I love to write and I found the reading community on Facebook then entered a writing contest.
What was the first romance novel you read that made an impression on you?
Does Forever by Judy Blume count?
Tell us 5 surprising things about yourself.
I’m an only child. I love to ride horses. I hate drama in my personal life. I love walking on the beach. I hate Brussels sprouts.
What is your writing environment.
A table in my basement surrounded by books.
One of your favorite quotes.
Tomorrow is another day.
Who is your perfect hero? And why?
My mom is my perfect hero. She’s got a great heart, would do anything for you and has always been my rock.
Which authors have caught your interest lately? Why?
Nicole Edwards Club Destiny and Alluring Indulgence series have me panting heavily. And Olivia Cunnings Sinners on Tour have me hoping to catch a bus!!
What type of book have you always wanted to write?
I’ve always wanted to write a suspense novel where the heroin gets kidnapped and doesn’t fall for her kidnapper.
Who are your dream dinner party guests?
All authors! (and a little eye candy) Sylvia Day, Michelle Valentine, Nicole Andrews Moore, Nicole Edwards, Stuart Reardon, Colin Wayne, David Gandy, Tom Hardy, Chris Hemsworth
What’s the last movie you watched and loved?
That’s hard, there aren’t that many good movies out there….. Grownups. The first one. Just a movie to make you laugh even if you had a shitty day!
Most __outspoken_ in high school. (popular, nerdy, sporty…) Why?
I’ve always had a problem editing what my mouth says before I talk. LOL
Top three things on your bucket list.
Go to Ireland
Buy a horse, Drive the Pacific coast highway in a convertible
How did you get the idea for this particular novel?
I had an ex-boyfriend in high school that went into the army. After he left I only saw him one other time, at a party while he was on leave. I have no idea where he is now.
What is your favorite scene in your new release?
The morning after Lisa and Bobby get together and he is making breakfast for her.
If you could be one of your characters - Who would you be? And why?
I would probably be Jodi. She has a great relationship with John and is exactly where she wants to be.
Which actor or book character do you have a crush on?
What’s your favorite body part of the opposite sex?
Arms, I love the feeling of strong arms around me.
What does love feel like?
Butterflies in your stomach, breath catching, scary and real.
Hey, baby! What’s your sign?
When was your last kiss?
What’s an absolute no-no in a relationship?
How did you meet your significant other?
I moved to NJ from Long Island because the 4 hour per day commute into NYC was killing me. My cousin lived in the area and took me out to meet some of his friends. Keith was the first one I met.
What’s your idea of a perfect date?
Dinner on the beach at sunset.
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Boxers or Briefs? Boxer briefs
Facial hair or clean shaven? stubble
Alpha or Beta? Alpha
Planner or Panster? Panster
White wine or red? red
Coffee or tea? coffee
Vanilla or chocolate? Vanilla *we are talking ice cream right??
Sweet or salty? sweet
Sleep in or get up early? Sleep in
Laptop or desktop? laptop
Beach or mountains? beach
Winter or summer? summer
Cat or dog? dog
Twilight or Fifty Shades? 50
Spotlight or In the Shadows? shadows
City or Country? both
Clubbing or candlelight dinner? Candlight dinner
Backpacking or luxury hotel? hotel
Morning or night person? night
Christmas or Halloween? xmas
Optimist or pessimist? optimist